Saturday 18 January 2014

Today

didn't help I woke up with a sore throat and feeling the flu coming...

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

The ghosts of relationships past

I feel haunted, I feel particularly haunted by a couple of relationships and a crazy phase I went through.

The person I left behind to pursue my career, the person I thought would leave their wife to pursue a life with me, the phase I just went out to party and wake up next to someone I would never want to see again. I did many mistakes during that time, I don't even want to considered they were part of my life. It's the one I regret the most. I still enjoy my career and I was very unhappy in the one I had before. I unfortunately then fell for the usual old tale hoping I would end up being the chosen one and then that never happened. I wasted a lot of time waiting...

This is probably why I feel that a bigger change in my life is becoming a necessity. So that I stop associating where I currently am with the last three "things":
-the man I left
-the man who wouldn't leave
-the men who never entered

I have learnt from my mistakes.

Holidays

I had been speaking with a friend of mine about going on holidays and we even had a destination, Japan. I was so excited about it but now she says she may have to move house and therefore can't do both. I am so gutted. I was sooo looking forward to a long, exotic, Asian holiday. I've never been to Asia, like proper Asia. Furthest east I've been is Moscow, and Mediterranean Turkey.
It's the second third time a 2014 holiday plan goes down the drain...
Maybe this is just not the year to go away on a complicated, exciting holiday. Hopefully it will be a year of change though!

Wednesday 15 January 2014

The only thing you need

“to get a date…is another date.” - Carrie Bradshaw - Sex & The City
“to get an interview…is another interview.” - Charlie Falconer - A Single Woman

Monday 13 January 2014

Do as I say...

Don't do as I do.

I always think saying something may happen, or is in plan, will jinx it. I therefore mention it to 2 of my closest friends...

Tuesday 7 January 2014

I had a dream...

I have again dreamt about teeth, and it's never nice. Basically I dream that as I am speaking and opening my mouth, the (tiny) pressure of the cheeks on my teeth makes them come out, or better, fall out! And then I panic about it, evidently! I think I just close my mouth and start running away.

"To dream that you have rotting or decaying teeth implies that you may have said something that you shouldn't have. You may have uttered some false or foul words and those words are coming back to haunt you. (...)
To dream that your teeth has fallen out and you try to refit them back into the mouth signifies a lack of self-confidence and embarrassment. You are afraid that others will know of your short-comings. If you acted calmly in your dream, then it may point to how can make the best out of any situation. You are able to rise above unfavourable circumstances."
From DreamMoods.

Quote

"I know the world isn't fair, but why isn't it ever unfair in my favor?"
Bill Waterson

Saturday 4 January 2014

New Year Resolutions

1-write on this blog more often
2-be healthy; continue to eat well and exercise (even if it is to continue it can still be a resolution, right?)
3-continue and improve keeping in contact with friends
4-get a new job/role
5-think positive thoughts and be happy!!!

2014