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| Audrey Tautou |
Weak... Should have kept my mouth shut!
Monday, 9 January 2012
Sunday, 8 January 2012
Saturday, 7 January 2012
Goldfrapp - Let it take you
They sail light, ocean
Sail this night, ocean
Filling my sleep so gently
Just let it take you
Just let it steer
They sail light, ocean
Sail this night, ocean
Shimmer like gold,
They're singing
Filling my sleep so gently
Just let it take you
Just let it steer
Just let it take you
This is easy
Memorable Quote
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| The Sex and the City - 1998-2004 |
Thursday, 5 January 2012
Life choices
I don't know what I want, I'm not even sure I know all that I don't want!
It's hard seeing most of your friends married and some with kids. Even worst when they keep asking or suggest a fix-up. I made my choices in the past and I don't regret them. I am a firm believer you should not regret your decisions. When one takes a decision, one does it for a reason, a reason that is the most valid and makes most sense AT THAT TIME. There is no point in looking back and then saying "If I had known...". Particularly because, even "if you knew", the story could have still been different from what you'd like it to be. One just can't imagine their alternative life story based on a decision made at one point in time. That only happens on films!
A few years ago, whilst some of my friends focused on their relationships, I focused on my studies and my career. One time I blocked my heart when I knew I was going abroad. Another time I abandoned the only relationship I've ever had for a job, my dream job. I still love my job and I am very glad I made that choice.
However I'm afraid I didn't get to learn about relationships when I should have and I'm unable to maintain them. I've had 2 proper relationships and one I prefer to forget. The other lasted about a year (yes, THAT long!) in which half of it we weren't even in the same country. Then, there are the flings, the "get to knows" or whatever people call them. After 3 months it's not really working and I give up. I don't like to fight/conflict and there are too many "incompatibilities" after such a short time, my view is that we should go separate ways.
I know what I'll do to make up for the absence, I'll just focus even more on work. This means that I am considering moving countries again, which then means that trying to get in a relationship would just be the wrong thing to do.
I don't want to be "played" around but will I accept less if it's that or nothing? Who lists a series of compliments and then says "but I think we should slow down and go back to the beginning"? Sometimes I just wonder "what is wrong with me?".
All in all, I miss the company, the sharing... Someone who will hold me tight and keep me safe. I have friends, and they are AMAZING, but the someone special...
It's hard seeing most of your friends married and some with kids. Even worst when they keep asking or suggest a fix-up. I made my choices in the past and I don't regret them. I am a firm believer you should not regret your decisions. When one takes a decision, one does it for a reason, a reason that is the most valid and makes most sense AT THAT TIME. There is no point in looking back and then saying "If I had known...". Particularly because, even "if you knew", the story could have still been different from what you'd like it to be. One just can't imagine their alternative life story based on a decision made at one point in time. That only happens on films!
A few years ago, whilst some of my friends focused on their relationships, I focused on my studies and my career. One time I blocked my heart when I knew I was going abroad. Another time I abandoned the only relationship I've ever had for a job, my dream job. I still love my job and I am very glad I made that choice.
However I'm afraid I didn't get to learn about relationships when I should have and I'm unable to maintain them. I've had 2 proper relationships and one I prefer to forget. The other lasted about a year (yes, THAT long!) in which half of it we weren't even in the same country. Then, there are the flings, the "get to knows" or whatever people call them. After 3 months it's not really working and I give up. I don't like to fight/conflict and there are too many "incompatibilities" after such a short time, my view is that we should go separate ways.
I know what I'll do to make up for the absence, I'll just focus even more on work. This means that I am considering moving countries again, which then means that trying to get in a relationship would just be the wrong thing to do.
I don't want to be "played" around but will I accept less if it's that or nothing? Who lists a series of compliments and then says "but I think we should slow down and go back to the beginning"? Sometimes I just wonder "what is wrong with me?".
All in all, I miss the company, the sharing... Someone who will hold me tight and keep me safe. I have friends, and they are AMAZING, but the someone special...
Moto
Guys are all bastards, Girls are all bitches and either I break up, or I need to suffer! Am I a masochist in what concerns relationships?
Wednesday, 4 January 2012
Mr Tall update
Texted him TODAY to wish happy new year and thanked him for meeting me (and driving me to my destination) at the end of December. Thought he might get the hint that he had said nothing, namely regarding his present. Something like: "thanks", "it was really kind of you" OR "I didn't open it" or even "just gave it to charity". He replied to my text and there is no mention of present. He did tend to miss the absolute obvious...
Tuesday, 3 January 2012
Elie Saab Fall-Winter 2012 Haute Couture
If I was rich, had massive closets and loads of parties to go to I would definitely have a few of these!! Love the dark blue ones, especially the 1st and 7th!
Monday, 2 January 2012
Viktor & Rolf Spring 2012
I love Viktor & Rolf. My favourite perfume of all time is Flowerbomb and I fell in love with them when I saw their exhibition at the Barbican a few years ago. Love the big stitches. The clothes are girlie, romantic and fashionable.
Photos taken from here.
Photos taken from here.
Today I feel
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| Brittany Murphy - Don't say a word - 2001 |
Sick and alone... I get the flu jab but always get colds! When will they invent the Cold jab?!
Sunday, 1 January 2012
2011
2011 was not a bad year! Not at all! In spite it's end was not the best, I must not forget all the other things that happened throughout which were really positive.
With regards to personal life:
I had quite a few friends who got married and I was honoured to be invited to be present and in one, be a bridesmaid.
I live with the best flatmate who is also a great friend!
I went out loads and had loads of fun and danced till I dropped!
Went out with 2 guys a few times and it was good while it lasted.
With regards to professional life:
I got promoted twice, delivered a project in "record" time and got loads of praise for it, have a great team, boss and colleagues who care for me.
So, 2012, the bar is high but I believe you can do better than this!
With regards to personal life:
I had quite a few friends who got married and I was honoured to be invited to be present and in one, be a bridesmaid.
I live with the best flatmate who is also a great friend!
I went out loads and had loads of fun and danced till I dropped!
Went out with 2 guys a few times and it was good while it lasted.
With regards to professional life:
I got promoted twice, delivered a project in "record" time and got loads of praise for it, have a great team, boss and colleagues who care for me.
So, 2012, the bar is high but I believe you can do better than this!
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