Tired

of life, of living...

End quote

“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.” ― Oscar Wilde

A single man

For the first time in my life I can't see my future. Everyday goes by in a haze, but today I have decided will be different.

If Everyone Could Just Go Away, That'd Be Great!

Dangerous Liaisons

Do you still think men love the way we do? No... men enjoy the happiness they feel. We can only enjoy the happiness we give. They are not capable of devoting themselves exclusively to one person. So to hope to be made happy by love is a certain cause of grief.

Questions

And then one day you wake up and
you feel the loneliness
you feel the emptiness
you wonder if it was worth it

Days later you wake up and
you wonder WHAT is worth it
and you can't find an answer...

You should date a younger man....10 Reasons Why

Robin Thicke - Blurred Lines ft. T.I., Pharrell

Let it out

Sad times...

Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter

Elgar - Nimrod

Weak

So, after not hearing from Mr Tall for ages... he requests contact on LinkedIn.
I'm so weak...
Accepted and kinda hate myself for it...

Letting it out

When I was a child I was once asked how many children I wanted. I was about 13 and at the time I said "none, cause I want to be a doctor and fully focus on my patients".
 
Time has gone by, I'm no longer 13 and I'm not a doctor. I now want children and a few yeas ago I even thought I wouldn't like to have them too late. My mum had me when she was 40 and I really feel that for a long time we didn't really connect very well because of that. The world had changed a lot and we couldn't relate to each other. Unfortunately, I don't have a husband or even a boyfriend so I'm now starting to get really scared I won't have children, and that saddens me... I do sometimes look back and wonder what would have happened if I had made a different decision. I don't regret them, but I analyse them. Not sure it's any better...

This is not where I thought my life would be...

Work (III - i really am inspired!!)

As per this post, the last 2 posts still relate to "old" job. "Future" job not started yet... unfortunately.

Work (II - I guess I'm on a roll here)

Can I retire now? And not put up with this $%)£ any more?

Would really, REALLY appreciate it.
Best Regards
Your kind employee (who will be looking for a new job if things don't change in the next month).
Me

Work

i.e. my boss is an idiot.

It's good to get some things out in the open (in hiding).

Weather

One of the reasons I've been busy is that the weather here has been AMAZING, so I end up being out and about all the time. Best enjoy the sunshine, it doesn't usually last...

Job

Been offered a different position in same place. I didn't even have to ask or say it wasn't working.

Sooo happy!!

OMG

It's been ages since I've been here!

So much to do, so little time...

Robert Plant - Satan your kingdom must come down