And overall

I should probably admit to the fact I was only in one serious relationship. One that lasted more than a few months. And actually it was probably just over a year.

What is wrong with me?

Not sure

I can remember the names of all the guys I've dated...

Will I ever settle?

Still here

Lou Rhodes - All we are

Anja Garbarek - I won't hurt you

...

Like a teenager...

I check my emails multiple times in the day. Whenever the number of unread is higher than the last time my heart stops for 2 seconds whilst I check my inbox. I dream of being with him. I imagine seeing him and being happy. I sometimes look at his picture but almost don't need to as his face is so well kept in my mind. I remember his soft eyes and miss his hug. If only that moment could last forever... If only we could be forever...

Today I feel...

Anxious. Why haven't I received an reply?

Leaving

It's hard to leave again. It's hard to leave the friends behind. It's hard to start over yet again. It's hard particularly when you feel you have found someone special...

Home

One day I would like to feel home...

Jem - Closer

The Outfields - Your love

The Cure - Just Like Heaven

The Cardigans - My Favourite Game

The Verve - Bitter Sweet Symphony

We will always be "just friends"

We never slept together but we shared a bed more than once. We never kissed but we held hands. We were never boyfriend/girlfriend but we were close friends. My flatmate once told me "I hope you two end up together". Don't really know how he felt about me but I felt something for him. Nothing ever really happened but wish it had. He has someone else now. He's one of the reasons I need to leave this place. We were out together with friends and as the two of us were getting drinks another couple assumed we were boyfriend/girlfriend when starting a conversation with us. It was like a knife went through my heart...

Crowded House - Don't Dream It's Over

Sunday Secret

Coldplay - Amsterdam