A Single Woman: December 2011

Saturday, 31 December 2011

Friday, 30 December 2011

Today I feel

Julia Roberts - Erin Brockovich - 2000

Busy!!! trying to rememmber the gazillion things I have to do!

Thursday, 29 December 2011

ZEN

Now, my brother is sick... And doesn't won't anyone else to know... I would REALLY like to not have to visit any other hospital for, at least, the next 6 months!

Tuesday, 27 December 2011

Yesterday I met up with a couple of my friends. And by that I mean, my best friends. That type of friend you tell everything and they know all about you. They know me too well... I miss the time we were together ALL THE TIME. For a while there was a fourth one and we used to say we were "The Sex and the City" girls. With time we have slightly separated but the 3 of us are still quite together but probably in 2s if that makes sense. Going back to the SATC analogy, we used to say each corresponded to a character. There was one that wanted to get married and have kids so she was Charlotte, one was taller than her boyfriend and bossed him around so she was Miranda, at the time the other had a boyfriend and I was single so she was Carrie and I was Sam. Today it is probably fairer to say we have a bit of each in us, or at least I hope!

Relax

Just relaxing in front of the TV watching "Modern Family".

Pete Yorn - Lose You

Monday, 26 December 2011

Send in the Clowns

One more...

I really can't take much more. Honestly, my strengths are almost gone.

Mr Tall (yes, there is some connection with Sex and the City, fact is , he is really tall) never even texted/called/emailed to thank for present. Maybe he hasn't opened and won't accept it? Wouldn't mind that, I quite liked it and would hapily have it.
Christmas has been really bad as a close relative has been in seriously ill which means I have spent my time in hospitals...
After these holidays, I want and need another couple of weeks to recover...

Tuesday, 20 December 2011

Feist - The Bad in Each Other

Speak clearly he said, but didn't see
He acted that way
And held me like a cup
Fill me up and pour me out
Realize the doubt
We had the same feelings
The opposite time
And a good man, and a good woman
Can't find the good in each other
And a good man, and a good woman
Will bring out the worst in the other
The bad in each other
The word in love, to find us now
When we'll become two
Floating into the blue, and (the meet on with her) (?)
the sadness could lose, either without or within
And a good man, and a good woman
Can't find the beauty in each other
And a good man, and a good woman
Bring out the worst in the other
When a good man, and that good woman
Can't find the good in each other
And a good man and a good woman
Bring out the worst in the other, the bad in each other

not one tear

I have not shed one tear... should I have?

Monday, 19 December 2011

Guys are all bastards (III)

Turns out I wasn't paranoid... Here is (I) and (II). And if I'm right there will be loads more...
Given he never called back I only saw him this morning. Started asking him why he hadn't called back, he appologised but seemed very nervous. I then mentioned I had got him a Christmas present, that I had been in a shopping centre the day before. His expression changed. He realised I had seen him.
It was not his wife, it was some other girl he his getting to know as well. apparently we were moving too fast and he doesn't have time for a relationship which he assumed I thought we had. I told him I agreed things were going too fast but no way I thought we were in a relationship. He wants to go "back in time" and meet up again as friends. I think I'm gonna give it a miss. Told him he could do whatever he wanted with his Christmas present, it only cost me roughly 10 quid anyway.

Like I say, guys are all bastards... I'll stick to this moto until proven otherwise!

Goldfrapp - Eat Yourself

If you’d only cut
So no doubt the blade is deep
You could long your life
Seated on that land
You went south on the train
She wore plastic boots for rain
And you crawl along the floor in
your dream dear, caught lonely

Who will I be when I'm with you again
Silver jet in the sky
You are the pain
Got a song, got to sing
For life

If you’d only cut
So no doubt the blade is deep
If you don't eat yourself
You will explode instead

Cause i know i love you so
When I know you don't love me
you were the last alone
Get wicked, did it come

Who will I be when I'm with you again
Silver jet in the sky
You are the pain
Got a song, got to sing
For life

Sunday, 18 December 2011

I Think I'm Paranoid (?)

You can look, but you can't touch
I don't think I like you much
Heaven knows what a girl can do
Heaven knows what you've got to prove

I think I'm paranoid
And complicated
I think I'm paranoid
Manipulate it

[Chorus:]
Bend me, break me
Anyway you need me
All I want is you
Bend me, break me
Breaking down is easy
All I want is you

I fall down just to give you a thrill
Prop me up with another pill
If I should fail, if I should fold
I nailed my faith to the sticking pole

I think I'm paranoid
Manipulate it
I think I'm paranoid
And complicated

[Chorus:]
Paranoid
I think I'm paranoid

[Chorus:]
Steal me, deal me, anyway you heal me
Maim me, tame me, you can never change me
Love me, like me, come ahead and fight me
Please me, tease me, go ahead and leave me

Bend me
Break me
Anyway you need me
As long as I want you baby it's all right

Bend me
Break me
Any way you need me
As long as I want you baby it's all right.

Guys are all bastards (II)

Yes, this is post number 2 on this subject, the first can be found here!
So I've been going out with this guy, things are going well, etc, etc. He has told me he is divorced, no kids but still has stuff to finish off splitting with his ex-wife. Fine, I thought. I like him and to a certain extent it explains why he was available and proves he can commit.
Today I went shopping for his Christmas present and almost bumped into him and his ex-wife. He didn't see me but I'm feeling pretty rubbish now. I knew they were meeting up to sign off stuff, but seeing them next to each other was not something I was expecting to happen... She is very pretty.
He also told me he was going to call me and he hasn't. So I tried calling him to check about meeting tomorrow and he didn't answer and hasn't called back.